I am humbled. Simply humbled by how God's hand moves. In one year, I am more in love with my Savior, my husband, and my role as mommy, and yet, looking back, it was the hardest year of my life.
I am also humbled by how God gave me, a wretched sinner, the opportunity to speak at our local MOPS last week, sharing my story with moms. I daily fail, and I am broken, and I am humbled by such an opportunity. I remember sitting in my living room with two close friends, intent on accountability and prayer, asking God to use me. Just use me Lord. I know it is going to be uncomfortable and hard, having to reach out of my comfort zone, but please use me. Little did I know that God would...however, not the way I had planned. I thought I would have to get the courage to have a neighbor over for dinner or something similar. I never would have imagined that the best thing for me would be to carry baby Paul for 9 months and send him straight to Jesus.
I am overwhelmed to be able to see God using that time in my life so soon. Nate and I were ready to never really see the benefits of such suffering, in our lives and in others. But Praise the Lord...He was able to speak through me last Thursday, and even though I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep that well the night before and woke up at the crack of dawn the morning of, He did provide a peace that surpasses all understanding. I was able to read His word and share my story. What fun!
What a year! What a couple of years...if you count our MRSA saga (which, BTW, we have been absent from an outbreak since January:)!!!
If you wish to hear what I had to say last week as I shared my tesitmony, you can click on this link. This mainly is for friends and family who couldn't be there with me on Thursday, but for those of you who are in the same spot I was in a year ago, I pray you can find strength and peace hearing a piece of God's story. His handiwork in my life. Warning: I am not a seasoned speaker. I am just a mom. One very emotional mom. So listen at your own risk:)
Love you all
Deb
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Dearest Deb, I woke up early this morning (3am) and couldn't fall back to sleep. You came to my mind. I got up and read your blog again to catch up. Your voice is speaking right now as I'm listening to your MOPS talk. It encouraged me and helped to give me a godly perspective on pregnancy and motherhood. It's good to share your story. I did a bible study with some women last semester through Luke 1 & 2. Mary's response convicted me when she was told from the angel that she was pregnant... "I am the Lord's servant; let it be to me according to your word". Our life is not our own, is it? May we all live as true servants of our Lord. I'm glad to hear about the little girl growing inside you. Our little boy is due Sept 7. Love, Gina
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